CD 3

Yes, last cycle was also a bum cycle again. I was *so* sure I was pregnant. Maybe thinking I was pregnant is what caused me to feel all those symptoms, I guess I'll never know. I guess I can look forward to the fact my period came on it's own for the third month in a row. This round it was a 35 day cycle, which is still good and a lot better improvement then not having one for 2-9 months at a time. I'm just still stuck in a funk about the whole situation - I just felt it was time and was denied again. I think this next round I'll have to try to hold out on testing until at least 13dpo, it will save me tests and hopefully my sanity too.

I have been trying to decide these past few days whether or not I should be taking clomid. I feel more depressed when PMS hits on clomid. I feel like bawling more then normal. It's been two months on clomid so maybe it's time for a break. I'm just hoping I still can ovulate without the use of clomid. I wish I had used charting longer then maybe I'd know if my body could do it on it's own. It's odd but I had a dream just this morning telling me to make sure I BD because I'm going to ovulate early. Just in case it's true, I'll make sure and dance the dance more!

Sorry if I'm chattering, it's been a long day. The good thing is tomorrow we're going to see some of DH's relatives (his brother, his brother's wife and son, and his father). We plan to hit the Seattle zoo so hopefully everything goes well!! Should be an exciting and fun day which means I have to get everything prepared!

CD 21

I'm already 21 days into my cycle. I was sure I posted an update or two before then. I must be spacing off lately!!! Well yesterday OPK's and my clearblue easy fertility monitor (CBEFM) both confirmed ovulation is going to happen soon! Yay! I had the most intense cramps yesterday but they've gone away today. Temperature still is low so I either am ovulating or going to soon so hopefully my temps spike tomorrow.

CD 11

Today is now CD 11. I finished my clomid yesterday since I started it a day late, I just hope a day does not make a difference. Then again if it benefits me I'm all for it! Using my Clearblue easy fertility monitor (CBEFM) daily. Still says low fertility. The first month it starts it so early to try and get used to your cycles. Means I'll be going through probably 20 sticks too!! They want you to always use test sticks in packs of ten. So even if it detects fertility it wants you to continue after it, which I guess you don't really need to do. If I have to use over 20 I'll refuse! I just hope it shows peak fertility soon.

My CM is starting to show it's fertile. It's turning eggwhite and stretchy so I hope that means good news! I'll be keeping an eye on everything. I know a lot of women think it's a burden but I think it's helping me learn more about my body. I mean, honestly how many women know that their cervix changes positions different time in their cycle? Certainly not me!

Anyway, baby dust to all :)