Welcome to hell...

You start spotting, your BBT drops... hello PMS, welcome to Hell. It's bad enough bleeding but adding the emotions and cramps to it and any one in your path better hope they make it out alive.

That is what is happening over here. I'm only 11 dpo but the last two days I was spotting, I've been very crampy, my emotions are starting to pour, and my BBT plummeted (after gradually going down everyday this past week) and now is residing at my pre-ovulation temperatures. This cycle sucks. It sucked bad that I didn't ovulate until CD 56, but now it sucks even worse than I ever thought it could.

I've been finding it harder to keep faith. I've been finding it hard to not know why I cannot get pregnant again or keep it. I really didn't want to have to go to the next step of an infertility specialist (not a reproductive endo, though, there's an ob/gyn that deals with most aspects of it but not IUI or IVF). I guess it's time for the tests and extensive workups... I just was hoping a miracle would happen before then.

I asked my doctor for a 7dpo progesterone workup, it was only 7.0 which is rather low but I suspected I had low progesterone already. I'm working on figuring out what the next step is, since 7.0 is considered ovulating but not strong enough (or viable enough I guess for implantation). I have probably 2 months before I actually see someone who knows 100% what the numbers mean and what I should do, but I don't want to wait 2 months to be pro-active.

I guess it will all work out in the end - just sucks trying to be patient!