Nausea remedy?

Does any one have any good nausea remedy suggestions? Willing to try anything!! As long as it can be safely done while pregnant, that is.

I don't puke, thankfully, but my nausea seems to be getting worse. In fact I have so many food aversions this is the list of things so far I crave and/or do not get nausea from eating:

cheeseburgers
french fries
donuts
chocolate
ice cream

Sounds like a very "healthy" list, doesn't it? LOL. Sadly when I eat these, I feel better. So far I've tried a variety of other meals that have been failures. I love their taste, but instant nausea. I'm still trying different recipes to rule out what I can eat without issue (tomorrow probably will be chicken quesidillas, hoping that goes over well).

Other wise.. what has helped your nausea? Any tips? I'd appreciate it.

Bittersweet anniversary

The day has barely started, but I find myself reflecting on these past 9 months. Today is my husband's and my 9th anniversary and while I should be 100% happy, I'm also finding myself rather sad...

Today was my due date. Instead of being able to celebrate the joy of a birth, I miscarried 8w3d on May 22nd. I know when my husband and I go out on our date tonight, I will enjoy it. But still I'll think about the way things could have been. Would we have not had a date today, but instead be in the hospital while I delivered a child? I know I cannot dwell on the things that can't be, but focus on the future ahead.

Today I'm further then I was last time... tomorrow puts me at 9 weeks. I'm proud, but still nervous about the next few weeks. Everything is going smooth, so I'm definitely feeling better about this pregnancy. I'm grateful for what I have and enjoy every minute I've been blessed, I just worry it will end.

Wishing all my TTC great news! I check in for updates often. I'm so glad to see some of them have had great news and hope wonderful news follows for the rest!

Remind me I still owe you pictures from this last year!

Getting past this point...

I really hate how infertility and/or recurrent pregnancy loss kills your innocence. It's made it so hard for me to feel happy about things currently. Instead I'm nervous, paranoid and afraid to lose yet another pregnancy.

Honestly I still cannot look at another pregnant ladies belly without a twinge. I'm jealous. Nothing bad, but I'm just wishing I could get to that point. Just kind of hits me and makes me wonder... will I ever get to that point again? Don't get me wrong.. so excited to see all those who've dealt with horrible situations to be blessed. I just worry about my situation.

I wish I could be like my one sister in law... she's a fertile myrtle. As fertile as it gets, in fact she so lovingly referred to her family in her Christmas newsletter as "the ever-growing family". Secretly my other SIL, Misty, and I feel like that means she's pregnant again (she has an 8 month old and two others under 3). She's one of those people who doesn't seem to ever worry about what's going to happen. She's oblivious, it seems. One day I wish she'd live in our shoes and I only wished I lived in hers. Oh to not worry every time you have an ultrasound if it is the last time you'll see a heart beat. Must be nice.

Any one else feel like your innocence has been taken away?

This year at a glance

I've seen a lot of people looking over their year, and I figured I'd join in and share what my family's 2010 has been like.

January - I had gotten my new camera this month, so as you can imagine I wanted to use it as much as I could. My family and I went to Sequim, WA; Hood Canal in WA; Seattle, WA; Seabeck, WA; and Hood Canal a second time. We had a great time, went to a game farm while we were in Sequim and to the aquarium in Seattle.

February - The beginning of the month my mother came to visit, like most every February to celebrate my son's 4th birthday. She's only missed one and doesn't plan to miss any more if she can. We went bowling and ate some ice cream at dairy queen, we had a blast having her here for the week. After she left we went to visit Hansville, WA and Poulsbo, WA. At Hansville we went to their beach, checked out the lighthouse. It was beautiful over there and in the distance you could see Seattle. It was amazing. In Poulsbo we went to the Marine Science Center, felt some starfish and watched a beautiful Octopus show off for us.

March - In the beginning of the month my sister-in-law and her family came to visit. Her daughter was in cheer leading and one of their competition was 30 minutes away so they visited us in the afternoons for two days. Our kids love each other so they had a blast, but it ended abruptly when our son hit his head into our oak chest and cut himself. He was fine, but at the time it caught him (and us) off guard. This month we also went to Seabeck, WA; Poulsbo, WA; Port Townsend, WA; and Bainbridge Island. A ton of fun - beaches, watching seagulls drop clams on the hard rocks below, seeing a deer in Port Townsend, and going to more beaches.

April/May- In the beginning of April (Easter) we had some fun in Bainbridge Island at their aquatic center with Andrew's twin girl friends and their parents. It was a great time. We also had a Easter hunt and decorated Easter eggs. I found out I was pregnant in mid-April. I had two miscarriages (one before my son and one after) so I was very nervous about everything. HCG showed low numbers, not doubling like they should.. but every one told me to have faith (doctors included). I tried. Saw the heart beat two times even, once when I started spotting at 7 weeks. 8w3d I started bleeding heavily and found out I miscarried. It was horrible. I still trucked on. The same day we found out I miscarried I tried making the best of it by going to a farmer's market for some pictures, but it was hard seeing a lot of pregnant ladies and kids.

June/July - After my miscarriage we didn't do as much. Hit another farmer's market and went to Bloedel Reserve in Bainbridge Island in June. Mid-July we went to visit family in Idaho. We spent two weeks living in my mother's house while we visited every one. We had a good time for the most part. It was hard to go to my father-in-laws house while every one was there, including my one sister-in-law who is a fertile myrtle and was due when I should have been (the miscarriage before this last one). She showed off her two month old to every one, blabbered on about her 2 month old and her two other children - 3 under 3. I was in pain, since I tried 3 years and in that time she had 3 no less one due when mine should have been. I had to spend most my time outside avoiding every one. At the end of the July we went camping with some of his family. It was.. okay. I'm not too fond of camping, being as it was my first time and three different sprays didn't protect me from those mosquitoes. They *loved* me.

August - Beginning of August we made our way home, but stopped and spent a few hours at Yellowstone National Park. Let me tell you if you only have a day, don't do it! That place is so big you need a few days to conquer it all. We loved what we did do there though, then headed back to home stopping halfway there and finishing it the next day. Otherwise the only other thing we did that month was another farmer's market.

September- Instead of being able to truly mourn my mother-in-laws death (she passed away September 8th 2 years ago) my husband wound up having to have surgery on his knee. He wound up having his meniscus tear and it lodged itself in between his knee and caused it to lock up so surgery was rushed. Thankfully the issue has been fixed, but he's still suffering some pain and in physical therapy for who knows how long. My husband was so nice, the day before my birthday a place called Kitsap Tours invited me to come take photos on their tour and my husband told me to go. It was awesome - got to take some great photos and enjoy myself. I honestly don't remember what we did on my birthday, it was just another day but I loved spending it with family. On the 26th we went to Port Gamble, WA for a little fair they had. Andrew loved spending some on the rides, unfortunately though we didn't get to see the wood carving since my husband wound up feeling sick so we headed home.

October - My sister-in-law and her family visited for two days. Her grandma had kitties left on her doorstep so she was determined to find them homes and I told her I'd pay for her to come here, visit a little and give me a kitty. So they did :) We spent a few hours in Bainbridge Island at a place called Kidimu. A kind of discovery place for kids. They had some fun, but we cut it short and headed to Chuck-e-Cheese later that night. End of October was Halloween, of course. Son was dressed up like one of those dragons from "How to train your dragon". We went onto the military base and probably trick or treated for only 30-45 minutes but it was nice for kiddo.

November - Found out I was pregnant this month. Went from tricare prime to tricare standard so I could get an ob/gyn I wanted. I went with Dr. Q who was dealing with my infertility. She's been great. This month hasn't been that busy - we did have a snow day which was kind of nice (aside from the crazy drivers). Got some lovely snow shots and my husband and son threw snow at each other (and at me).

Honestly this month has been slow, but I don't mind. Not much energy, but Christmas is in two days. I'm not 100% ready (husband's presents are not wrapped and Christmas tree is lacking ornaments) so I think I best get to it!! To all those who celebrate, hope you have a wonderful holiday season!!

Perhaps in a few days I'll add some of the pictures I've taken this year.

Welcome ICLW!!!!

I think it's been a few months since I've done ICLW. I figured it would be good to introduce myself to all the new people checking out my blog and tell a little bit about what's been going on lately.

Well my name is Krystal, I've been married almost 9 years (December 29th) to my Navy man Aldon, and we have a son together who is almost 5 years old. It took us 2 1/2 years and one miscarriage to get pregnant with him, and he's truly a blessing. During the time it took trying to conceive him I was diagnosed with PCOS - long absent periods, some facial hair, weight issues, etc. In fact when I went off birth control to start TTC #1 I didn't have my period for about 10 months until I had to induce it with provera.

In April 2006 I stopped birth control again so we could start TTC #2. I didn't have my period for 9 months and finally when I was about to go in for provera it started up. In September 2009 I found out I was pregnant, but miscarried around 6 weeks. April 2010 I got pregnant and miscarried 8w3d. With low levels of HCG and slow growth I knew it would end out bad, but never expected it would go that long and see the heart beat a couple times before things failed. It was heartbreaking. During these 3 1/2 years I was diagnosed with low progesterone, insulin resistance, and vitamin d deficiency.

A month ago we found out I'm pregnant again, after being on 3 horrible cycles of clomid. The last cycle I actually stopped clomid 3 days into it since I became so emotional, which ironically is the cycle I became pregnant. I'm currently 7 wks 4 days pregnant and everything is going well. You can check for my pregnancy updates on the tab above, I'm updating it often. I was charting for the last 13 months to make sure I hit ovulation on the nose, and so glad I did. I learned so much reading the book "Taking charge of your fertility".

My ob/gyn I have now is very proactive. She's a wonderful lady and I'm glad I changed from Tricare Prime to standard so I could see her. Navy doctors and nurses treated me poorly when I've dealt with recurrent pregnancy loss I couldn't take it any more. And I haven't regretted it at all since I downgraded the insurance.

I'm sure I've left some details out, my history is also on the side.

Welcome to my blog!

Hurting when others hurt

Near the time I found out I was pregnant I had two friends "confide" in me. One told me she was starting to feel my world - infertility. She found out she had endometriosis and had been trying to conceive for a year. She found out how much it hurt every time she ever asked me "Are you pregnant yet?" before my son was conceived and "are you pregnant yet?" years or so after I had. It hurts to hear another person close to me suffers, but nice to know in my circle of friends I was no longer alone. But it hurt.

And during the same time period one of my friends found out she was 5 weeks pregnant and miscarrying. It's heart-aching whether you were trying to conceive or not. I know she knew about my history, and we discussed things which helped... but I know how it can take time to heal. I wonder is it harder to try hard to conceive, get pregnant and miscarry or find out you are but it's not going to last? Both situations are so harsh, and every one copes in different ways. I cannot imagine.

And just today one of the people I know online from my TTC groups (one I started like 1 year ago that she was in from the beginning who took over it after I miscarried last round and made the group run) found out that the baby was measuring behind and her babies heart stopped beating.

I hurt so much for all my friends. Infertility and miscarriages. No one should have to ever deal with these pains. It always kills me to wonder why people who are crappy parents or don't want kids can get pregnant on a dime but others who totally deserve that love get to suffer. It's heartbreaking. I can only pray time heals their wounds and hearts. I pray we all find our happiness.

I put a friend on facebook block...

I have to admit - I put a close friend on facebook block this past week or so. Not completely, but just so none of her activity shows up on my front page. I feel guilty for it and I'm sure someone will disagree with my reasoning, but here it is: She posted a 3-d ultrasound of her pregnancy as her facebook picture.

I don't know what other people feel about this - but I feel rather annoyed. She knows I've had miscarriages and I'd see that, so I think it's rather rude. Especially since your facebook picture is supposed to be you.

I've always told other people that I know at least 4 people on my list suffering from infertility and/or miscarriages and before I post a picture of an ultrasound I will be sending a personal message to them about it. I will never make it my profile picture ever, I feel it's painful for others because I've been there. That's why I'm rather sad I put a friend on a block, but it hurts to see that.

I'm sure there's people out there who understand why I did that. She also has one of those weekly updates being posted and saying how far along she is and what should be going on in the pregnancy. I do look at her page every so often, but am so bothered by her picture. Tell me I'm not alone.