So where do I go from here?

I know the military hospital wants to forward me to Madigan, which is an hour or more drive away and I hate the thought of that. I don't like military hospitals in general lately. I believe it's to get tested more and see if there is anything wrong with me. I'm going to look around town and see if I can find someone who does RPL tests because I hate the thought of going that far and dealing with more military doctors/nurses (bad experiences when pregnant as is and their rude comments). I've pretty much decided after the fiasco with rude comments at this military hospital while I was pregnant that I'll probably go to Standard insurance sometime and deal with some costs myself.

But as for TTC? I'm still up in the air about when we'll try again. Both my husband and I are in a ton of pain right now - I feel like at this point all I should do is focus on my weight loss again. So I might post more about weight loss for a while then trying to conceive until the wounds heal more. Right now I'm going through the stages of death - without the bargaining part. Denial is hard to do when you're bleeding a ton though.

Any way, from here I don't know where to go or where we'll end up. All I know is I'm going to either buy a punching bag or a recumbent bike... or perhaps both soon. The punching bag sounds appropriate with how much anger I feel right now.