8 dpo and fears

Well it's 8dpo, my temperature is actually looking really good and going up every day. I know a triphastic can mean jack since I've had it happen one cycle where I wasn't pregnant, and one cycle where I was pregnant. However it's not that I'm paying attention to, although I admit it is trying to get my spirits up... it's the fact my body is starting to behave itself. Usually by this point my temps start going nuts and going down and up a ton. It never usually sticks to just going upward... so it's great. I'm hoping that means when I get my progesterone blood work done today it shows a better number then last time.

I'm kind of scared about what's next. We've been trying to conceive our second child for 3 1/2 years now and we're still on clomid (I was on it last year for two cycles, and this is our second cycle this round). I've seen people who have tried conceiving 1 year go to the next phase... and I always wonder why I haven't taken that leap. Perhaps I'm afraid we'll put more money into it... and still come out empty handed. One of the things is I feel like if I don't lose weight then perhaps IUI or IVF wouldn't work the way it is supposed to. If we don't get pregnant this cycle we'll have one more clomid cycle before we re-evaluate if we should bother doing clomid for three months more or not. It's all a whirlwind of nerves and emotions. I guess when we dream of families we never dream of how long it will take. Hopefully I'll figure it all out soon... one more cycle to go before we reconsider the next phase. It's coming up quickly.