Possibly a guinea pig

I have no hopes for this cycle, let's just start it off with that. My temperatures were higher then normal before ovulation, are above cover-line now with a dip today oncover-line! What is going on? It sucks not knowing what my body is doing, that's for sure.

That being said.. I talked to Dr. Q, my ob/gyn, after this Clomid fiasco that led me to have more anxiety and panic. We talked about not going back on clomid, even if it was a lower dose. There was no way we were going to try that route again! So Femera has been our topic of discussion. She's only prescribed Clomid to her patients TTC so she is spending this week studying/researching Femera more. I didn't know if I need a cycle off between Clomid and Femera since I heard clomid stays in the system for a while (and I didn't want to cause issues). So that's one of the things she needs to find out.

I also talked to her about pregnancy and what she would do. See, right now I'm on Tricare Prime. I hate it. Only because every time I've been pregnant and have gone to the military hospital for ob/gyn care they've treated me like an idiot and were rude to me. The miscarriage in September 2009 they told me I would be getting a 6 week ultrasound to make sure every thing was fine the next time I was pregnant due to have two miscarriages at that point. The pregnancy/miscarriage in May 2010 I had to FIGHT to get a 6 week ultrasound. They flat out said I wouldn't be getting one until the 10-12 week appointment. I had went to human resources to tell them everything said to me and she went up there and fought for me. If it wasn't for her, I'd have not gotten any ultrasounds as early as I did. The nurses are always rude. When I asked for my 7 week HCG they told me it was 3,000 and I started bawling. I knew what it meant... and of course the nurse is like, "Yep should be around 15000" and then she had the nerve to tell me "Well at least then you can go in for more fertility testing." WTF?! So they have never been on my good side. When I started spotting they did an ultrasound and said the baby had a heart beat and that that was fine. Well I asked about seeing about growth and how fast the heart rate was. They told me it didn't matter, all that mattered was the baby had a heart beat and that's it! And when I started bleeding and went to their ER the ob/gyn there told me I wouldn't see the baby pass. Lying sack of crap. They also told me they don't believe in progesterone level testing and don't believe it's important.

Any way, enough flashbacks to the past. I talked to Dr. Q and we discussed if I was her patient. She agrees with how low my progesterone is (around a 9 on fertility medicines) that it wouldn't hurt to be on progesterone. And she believes it could cause miscarriages having low progesterone. She said she would do ultrasounds weekly if that's what it took for me to be comforted. And HCG beta draws as well. She sounds like she'd take a step further to make sure everything is fine with the pregnancy, which is good. I might consider going to Tricare Standard the next time I find out I'm pregnant, even if I'm at a risk for a miscarriage. We'll see what happens.

If I'm not pregnant this round.. well, we'll see what's next. Hopefully Dr. Q will call me this week to tell me if we should go this route.. or what's next. I've got my fingers crossed.