Primary and secondary infertility. Recurrent pregnancy loss. PCOS. Insulin Resistance. Low progesterone. Vitamin D deficient. 3 1/2 years and 3 (more) clomid cycle cautiously expecting #2!

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

A good month

I wanted to mention an update on this journal, but didn't want to until I talked to my friend, Jolene. Wanted to chat with her about it all first before I mentioned it here. Now that I've talked to her I'm posting it! Well, on the 10th I started my medroxy at 11:30 pm. Around 12 am (so the 11th really) I noticed I was spotting. I had started my period on my *own*. If I had waited and not took my pill I would've known before then.

So, to say the least, I'm very happy. On my own. How great is that? I haven't technically had a period on my own for over three years. Why? Because May 2001 to October 2002 I was on ortho tricyclen (birth control) so that forced my periods and then I was on medroxy (provera) to start them afterwards since I wouldn't get them. So I haven't had a period on my own for quite a while and even then they weren't normal. This one made my cycle 30 days! Which means there's a chance I'll be ovulating normally. Exciting.

So on the 30th at 4 pm I go in for ovulation tests. I don't quite understand why she is doing it the 20th day of my cycle because it should happen around the 15th day of my cycle, right? Anyhow, I'm hoping it turns out to be my lucky month. Maybe this change will bring on some good news in the near future. Can't wait.

For other news... Alisha told me about three weeks ago she's pregnant. Although I am a little sad, I'm very happy for her. She wasn't trying, wasn't expecting it. She just got off birth control probably a month and a half ago. I guess she got pregnant that month. It's amazing in itself. I just hope all goes well for her though. Motherhood is a big journey.

I'll be updating Wallace News now. Bye! Take care.

Wednesday, June 9, 2004

A tad frustrated & June 10th update

I'm a bit frustrated because of yesterday. Well, like I mentioned, I needed to get my period by yesterday otherwise I'm supposed to start medroxy (assuming I'm *not* pregnant). Well, I got to my appointment fine. It was *supposed* to be at two pm. Well, the place was PACKED of people, and some had a 2 o'clock appointment too which I didn't quite understand. Well, 2:20 approached and the nurse brought me back. I don't know what went wrong, but she weighed me and said it was weird because last time she weighed me she wrote down 200! I was like, "I didn't gain 48 pounds in three weeks! I *wish* I was 200." I know what I weighed on theirs last time... I weighed 251. SO she fixed her mistake.

She left, then came back in about three minutes later. She took my blood pressure and I know it's wrong. She told me I was 150/90! The max anyone should be is 130/89 and that's a high-normal. So I know something is wrong. I was 130/89 exactly at my dietican appointment. However, at the dietican appointment the blood pressure thing went too tight and did something to my arm. So now every so often when I push myself up my fingers (mainly my thumb) goes numb. Mother said that if I got nerve damage the blood pressure would read me wrong on that side. So I think it could've been that.

She left again, came back 10 minutes later. She apologized and said the doctor wasn't around. I guess she was delivering someone. I told her that isn't good because I needed the appointment that day. I told her I needed a pregnancy test then if I wasn't pregnant she was going to give me further instruction about taking medroxy to start. I told her I was supposed to be getting a dye test done afterwards too. She said she could give me the pregnancy test, so I gave her a sample. The results...

Negative. I knew I wasn't pregnant. However, I can't explain why for the past five days I was having cramps when my period hasn't came. I'm clueless.

So, the nurse said she'd give a message for the doctor to call me so I know what to do. I didn't want to start without her word. Well, it's 3:30 today and still no phonecall. I have a feeling I should do this on my own for now. I really dislike when doctor's pull things like this. I know I should get my tubes checked but with the stories I've heard, I feel like I shouldn't. I'm not big on the pain it'd cause. I think if I don't get pregnant in the next six months I'll go back to a specialist and get checked out. We'll see. Maybe I'll change my mind.

June 10th Update: Thankfully around 1 pm the Ob/gyn did call me. I didn't expect her to, but I was grateful for it. So we talked and she told me to start medroxy today. She said for me to take clomid this cycle too. I was like, "didn't you want me to get the dye test (Hysterosalpingography) done?" She said it at this point isn't too necessary. Right now we don't need to do it. Honestly, it was a relief to hear that. I know there's a chance my fallopian tubes could be plugged, but at this point I'd rather not worry. I heard two stories about it that bothered me too, and I'm not good on pain or cramps either.

So this is what the plan is this month:

Start medroxy (provera) today (6/10/04), one pill a day for five days

When menstruation starts (aka 1st day of cycle), stop medroxy if the dose wasn't finished

Call doctor when menstruation starts

3rd day of cycle start clomid, 1 a day for five days

20th day of cycle get tested for ovulation

Wish me luck!

Sunday, June 6, 2004

Well, there's not much to say in the TTC update. Lately I've been taking time off from exercising. It's become frustrating to me over the last couple weeks so I needed a break. I need the time off because doing it 6 out of 7 days a week really was getting to me. Felt like no progress was coming along as much as I was doing, so I needed relaxation.

How am I feeling now? Still the same. I haven't been motivated. However, I asked Aldon if it'd be alright for me to get a ball for ab exercises and a few other little necessities for exercising at home. I think I'd feel more comfortable doing them at home. No worries, go at my own pace and all. In the long run it'd be cheaper on our pockets if I started doing it myself. Aldon said it'd be okay for me to get what I need, and I'm glad. I know Alisha would probably be upset. I told her I'd still go to exercise sometimes (these two weeks she's been in Winsconsin for vacation), but it'd be nicer to do it at home. And cheaper.

Today I was checking around on websites and decided something. When I'm pregnant I'm going to workout. I'm not talking heavy aerobics. I'll do things like light weights and walking, just something to keep me active and in shape. I feel like getting a pile of books about pregnancy ahead of time so I know every aspect beforehand, even though I know quite a bit. It just interests me, so maybe I'll pick up a few books here soon.

Well, like my obgyn said if I'm regular my period will start the 8th. If I'm *normal*. So the 8th is my appointment and I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to it. She'll take a pregnancy test if I don't have my period, and if I'm not pregnant I start my medroxy. 2-3 days after my period ends I go in for the tubes test. Now *that* I'm not looking forward too. However, I'm not sure if I'm imaging this... but I've been having little cramps for four days now. I've been coming up with excuses for them but I can't help but notice they're still around. "Maybe they're my stomache over-hungry... maybe they're something else"... I know where they're coming from. I just don't want to get my hopes up (thinking my period *is* coming on it's own). I haven't had a normal period since Sept 2002 and that's when I was on ortho tri-cyclen. So long ago. It'd be a relief to get it normally, so let's hope for the best.