Primary and secondary infertility. Recurrent pregnancy loss. PCOS. Insulin Resistance. Low progesterone. Vitamin D deficient. 3 1/2 years and 3 (more) clomid cycle cautiously expecting #2!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I'm a failure

I thought I'd do better with ICLW and commenting on others blogs, but I just couldn't keep up. This weekend has been busy, we tried getting some of the front grass removed. Didn't do as much as I hoped for , but we keep getting rained and trust me rain makes dirt/grass much heavier and harder to deal with. I'm hoping next weekend looks nicer, but the weather report says it'll be rain like normal. That's what we get for living in Washington, isn't it?

Otherwise it's been trying to do household things. We have so much to accomplish. It didn't help that my husband accidentally cut his thumb on the router two days ago. No hospital visit, but he sure mauled his finger nicely. Found out pregnancy and mauled finger makes me a little faint and squeamish, go figure.

The last few days I've felt horrible. I think I need to work on a few things this pregnancy, both eating better and drinking more water to start. I'm starting to get dizzy and faint feeling more often and it's made it harder for me to function. It's definitely made things a challenge, that's for sure. Hard to be in the mood to do much of anything when you feel like crap. I'm still trying to push past it, get things done... but I'm definitely slower then I wish I was.

As for the baby room? As you can imagine no update there. I have to start buying a few things soon as well! Lots of items to get since I got rid of majority since it seemed like I wasn't ever going to need to use them. Thankfully we have our dresser and crib left over. Too bad that's not all we need! It'll get done, that's for sure. I'm only 21 weeks so we still have time.

I hope every one is doing well!


Thursday, March 24, 2011

The never ending to-do list

You got to love to-do lists, right? Normally the to-do list sucks when you look at it, but more and more as it gets accomplished it feels so good. But what if it seems to be never ending? That feels like our story lately. As you can imagine it makes it hard to get done.

Currently our future son's nursery room is our computer room. We've managed to fill the room full of things (3 computers & desks, DH's tools and my crafts) so that in itself is a lot of stuff to move. We were going to stick the computers in our "exercise room" so as you can imagine we have a nice little shuffle that needs to happen. Currently my husband has been using his hands and working on a building a big CD holder so when we shift to the other room we have a place to put CD's on a wall, away from any child's reach. It'll be nice, but my husband works from 2 pm-11 pm so there's not much time to get it done unless it's a weekend.

I wish I could say that is it! It's Spring time and we planned to do some landscaping work - tear up the grass in the front yard, lay down fabric and bark so we no longer have to deal with the frustrations of mowing up there. Wanted things to be a little less maintenance as you can imagine. We also need to start planting our seeds for peas, carrots, cantaloupe, etc. I could do *some* it on my own, but lately I'm still fighting to have the energy necessary to get things done. Doesn't mean I won't be trying to get some work done today though! It will be good for me to get out, it's a beautiful sunny day outside (Mid-50's so not too hot) and I know Andrew would love to get out as well since today is his day off of school. Get in some natural vitamin D.

And of course Spring brings out Spring cleaning! Every year I donate items to Goodwill however I still feel like we have too much in our house. I'm pretty certain our junk is reproducing!! So that's on the list of things to do - I already have 2 donation piles and that will get bigger here soon.

What's on your to-do list lately, or have you already gotten yours accomplished?


Monday, March 21, 2011

Welcome ICLW

Welcome to every one who visits from ICLW!! My name is Krystal, I've been married 9 years, have one son who is five years old (conceived after 2 1/2 years and one miscarriage). I'm 20 1/2 weeks pregnant after trying 3 1/2 years and having 2 miscarriages. My husband is shore duty in the Navy, which has been much nicer on the stress as you can imagine.

I love crafts and designing things, but I don't get much time for it as you can imagine. Life keeps me busy, but I wouldn't have it any other way. My favorite thing overall is photography, I absolutely love photography. I keep questioning how easy it will be to have a 2 month old and 5 year old and go to balloon races but since it's 4 hours away I know it won't happen. Perhaps another year, right? :)

Unfortunately I haven't been blogging much because it's been a bad week. The beginning of last week my computer was having a fit so after many many hours getting things off my computer I finally got it reformatted and back up running. I thought that would be the worst thing that happened that week, until Wednesday the 16th, hit and in the evening my husband and I realized our cat Boots has passed away. I'm still not handling it well either, he was our best snuggler and always acted like a baby. We have his mama Jasmine, found her when she was abandoned in the Navy and pregnant. So we've had him since day 1, March 29th he would've been 9 years old. It's hard losing my furbaby, no less without warning. Took us off guard.

I think that's all to say. I hope you all have an enjoyable ICLW!! Not sure how many I'll see this week, but thanks to all those who visit and take time to comment.


Sunday, March 6, 2011

I love crafts

My mother has always been creative and loves crafts. The biggest thing she does is crochet, even when she had surgery on a few of her fingers she had the urge to crochet the same day (didn't though, wouldn't be too good to abuse her fingers right after surgery).

I've always loved crafts and artsy stuff - my biggest is photography, but I do love a lot of other crafts. However... I'm the world's biggest procrastinator. I've bought wire jewelry books and supplies, hardly ever touch them or try. I've gotten yarn and they only get used up when my mother visits and takes them off my hands and crochets us a blanket (you can imagine we have a few!) I was working on a quilt for Aldon - a tigger blanket. Never finished it and it's been 5 years!! I also have bisque ornaments, probably 20 of them all are half finished.

I'm kind of having the urge to do some crafts. Honestly I feel like making baby hats - go figure, right? But after seeing some very cute hats (like the monkey hat) I really want to see if I can follow the pattern and make them. Kind of a challenge when I only know so much about crocheting on my own, but I think it'd be fun. It'd be a change of pace. So I vow that in the next week or two I will update about what I've done!! Just got to get me a nice color brown yarn to start :)


Thursday, March 3, 2011

18 weeks

I have to first admit - I'm always shy showing off pictures of me. I'm a little self conscious that I was plump before I got pregnant. But this is who I am!! I've vowed after I have the child I will focus on losing weight and getting healthier. I'm trying to start now, but it's hard when I'm still getting over food aversions.

How Far Along: 18 weeks

How Big is The Baby: Baby is the length of a bell pepper (Length: 5 1/2 inches, head to bottom.)

Total Weight Gain: Ummm... around 6 pounds, give or take a pound.

Maternity Clothes: Switched this past week, had to cave in and buy me some maternity pants.

Sleep: Still feel like I'm not getting enough, but I'm used to that.

GENDER: Finding out in 4 days.

Movement: Last week I felt movement for 5 minutes, the second move made me jump since it felt like someone was jumping in there! Since then nothing noticeable.

Food Cravings: Ice cream and chocolate. Horrible too since there's none in the house.

What I Miss: On and off deli meats, but I'm not sure if it's a situation of wanting what you can not have since I don't normally eat deli meats.

What I'm looking forward to: Knowing the gender and getting the baby room cleaned out.

Milestones: Felt distinguished movement last week. 18 weeks in itself feels like an accomplishment!!

Symptoms: Exhaustion, food aversions, nausea.