CD 3

Yes, last cycle was also a bum cycle again. I was *so* sure I was pregnant. Maybe thinking I was pregnant is what caused me to feel all those symptoms, I guess I'll never know. I guess I can look forward to the fact my period came on it's own for the third month in a row. This round it was a 35 day cycle, which is still good and a lot better improvement then not having one for 2-9 months at a time. I'm just still stuck in a funk about the whole situation - I just felt it was time and was denied again. I think this next round I'll have to try to hold out on testing until at least 13dpo, it will save me tests and hopefully my sanity too.

I have been trying to decide these past few days whether or not I should be taking clomid. I feel more depressed when PMS hits on clomid. I feel like bawling more then normal. It's been two months on clomid so maybe it's time for a break. I'm just hoping I still can ovulate without the use of clomid. I wish I had used charting longer then maybe I'd know if my body could do it on it's own. It's odd but I had a dream just this morning telling me to make sure I BD because I'm going to ovulate early. Just in case it's true, I'll make sure and dance the dance more!

Sorry if I'm chattering, it's been a long day. The good thing is tomorrow we're going to see some of DH's relatives (his brother, his brother's wife and son, and his father). We plan to hit the Seattle zoo so hopefully everything goes well!! Should be an exciting and fun day which means I have to get everything prepared!

CD 21

I'm already 21 days into my cycle. I was sure I posted an update or two before then. I must be spacing off lately!!! Well yesterday OPK's and my clearblue easy fertility monitor (CBEFM) both confirmed ovulation is going to happen soon! Yay! I had the most intense cramps yesterday but they've gone away today. Temperature still is low so I either am ovulating or going to soon so hopefully my temps spike tomorrow.

CD 11

Today is now CD 11. I finished my clomid yesterday since I started it a day late, I just hope a day does not make a difference. Then again if it benefits me I'm all for it! Using my Clearblue easy fertility monitor (CBEFM) daily. Still says low fertility. The first month it starts it so early to try and get used to your cycles. Means I'll be going through probably 20 sticks too!! They want you to always use test sticks in packs of ten. So even if it detects fertility it wants you to continue after it, which I guess you don't really need to do. If I have to use over 20 I'll refuse! I just hope it shows peak fertility soon.

My CM is starting to show it's fertile. It's turning eggwhite and stretchy so I hope that means good news! I'll be keeping an eye on everything. I know a lot of women think it's a burden but I think it's helping me learn more about my body. I mean, honestly how many women know that their cervix changes positions different time in their cycle? Certainly not me!

Anyway, baby dust to all :)

Wasn't my month

I knew the odds were against me last month since we only had 3 BD days before he was sent back out on a submarine for a while. It was roughly near my ovulation time too but I don't think we planned it right. Or it just wasn't enough. We're working on it! But good news is May 23rd I got another period on my own!! A 31 day cycle this round. So two months in a row my periods have been normal and that's more than I could ever ask for is a normal body!!

I've been starting to BBT chart. For the last week now. Post-ovulation temps were 98.1-98.3 range, once my period hit my temps have ranged 97.0-97.3. I've been working on charting cervical feel and position along with cervical fluids. I decided to buy a clearblue easy fertility monitor (aka CBEFM) and hopefully it will be here tomorrow. Since it'd be coming probably after my first morning urine (since tomorrow is CD 5 and that's the last you can start using it on this thing and I got it scheduled for overnight delivery) I was thinking of catching my first urine and putting it in the fridge until it was time. We'll see if that works! If all means I can remove the old data and start fresh next month, but hopefully there won't be a next month.

Well since clomid 50mg was a bust, I'm supposed to be on either 100 or 150mg. I'm pretty sure he'll only put me on 100mg. I called the nurse and left a message saying I NEED him to fill the prescription asap because tomorrow is CD 5 and I take it CD5-9. So hopefully they hurry up because today may be the only time I have to pick it up. I'll update later!

Confusing

I had an Answer OPK test show a + on the 9th, day 18. Alright... that's good!! So I possibly ovulated on the 10th... well two days ago and today (7 dpo and 9 dpo) I wiped down there only to find a small amount of pinkish discharge. Now to me that's send a warning sign of implantation bleeding. But I'd only think it'd happen once. I'm not sure what to think... I tested and got a BFN which I expected. It's only day 28 and I've never really been normal on my cycle (although I did have my period on my own and a 29 day cycle last month). I just am overwhelmed. I don't think it could've happened this month, though. We only got to BD three times and the last being 2 days before the positive OPK. I know semen can last five days (or was it seven?) in fertile mucus and I did use pre-seed to help. I guess only time will tell. I figure if all means if I'm not pregnant the most I can ask for is getting my period on my own!

I don't know who actually is reading this. I love hearing from people though! Either way... any one who is reading this and TTC I wish you all the best.

Journal of an Infertile

I'll start this journal like I do any other, introducing myself. My name is Krystal, I'm 25 years old, married 7 1/2 years and I have one son, 3 year old Andrew. Obviously I'm not entirely infertile, but I've had my issues. It took us 2 1/2 years to conceive Andrew and one miscarriage along the way. I used to have another journal I wrote in before Andrew was born but I feel the need to start fresh about my fertility issues.

Before I go on... I'll tell you the issues I'm known to have. I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and IR (Insulin Resistance). Yes, I'm overweight. I'm working on losing weight along with TTC #2. I really do think me getting down from 262 to 197 helped me conceive my son. Of course I'm starting over in the weight deparment since I slacked off. Word fo advice: Never let being pregnant make you slack off on eating healthy and exercising. Infact, the best thing you can do is exercise and eat right no matter where you are in life! And if you do let pregnancy get the best of you, don't slack off after delivery too!

I've always had very abnormal periods so with the help of provera and clomid I hope we can get pregnant again.

I found a poem I loved and thought it'd be nice to share, not sure the original artist.

A Wish For A New Baby

I wished upon a star...
I closed my eyes and prayed,
I threw a shiny penny,
into a well each day.

The same little wish was wished,
upon my birthday cake
I asked the Lord... Please hurry,
just for heaven's sake!

I was trying to be patient,
but I had waited long enough
my wishing well with pennies,
was now completely stuffed!

I would start and end my days
repeating the same prayer,
I knew that up in heaven,
they could see I really cared.

Just when I thought I couldn't,
bear another day
it is then that I learned,
you were on your way.

All the prayers and wishes,
finally did come true
The blessing God gave me,
was my pregnancy with you!

Please go to my Baby Website

Time is approaching, I'm due February 6th and if you want to read about it go to this website: You'll Be Blessed. Thank you!