Primary and secondary infertility. Recurrent pregnancy loss. PCOS. Insulin Resistance. Low progesterone. Vitamin D deficient. 3 1/2 years and 3 (more) clomid cycle cautiously expecting #2!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Life's cruel joke...

AF decided to show up a bit earlier then I assumed, which isn't bad but of course it makes the weekend bite a little. But that's not the cruelest joke played on me today... we go out to a farmer's market and sit down with our meal next to two couples, one has a three month old (which is what I would've had if I didn't miscarry #2) and one was pregnant and must have her gender ultrasound (where I would have been passed if I didn't have miscarriage #3) so they were going on chatting away with each other about everything pregnancy and baby wise . I wanted to cry. And then of course a very pregnant and ready to pop lady walked right by me, which of course when you're sitting down means a belly bump in your face.

It's great for them, but just a reminder of that I'm on my period instead of where they are. I hate periods, but they're a blessing in disguise. I just want to go without the discomfort of feeling cramps and, well, bleeding. I'd love to be in a pregnant ladies shoes - even if it meant the shoes were covered from puking too much.


Mummy in Waiting said...

Can completely relate, sometimes you just want to get away from it all and next thing you know you're seeing belly bumps everywhere you go! Sorry to hear about your miscarriages too (((HUG)))


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